Human beings are made to face many situations. I for instance have witnessed many instances which brought me to tears, other brought smiles and cheerfulness. Yet another moments made me see the emotional and caring nature of a person and thanks to many friends and relatives, I saw the vulnerable side of their persona. I am beginning to realize that life is but a journey of emotions and emotions are shared with fellow humans. I just cannot stay in a fortress of human dignity and self-righteousness and call myself emotional when I do not share even a little bit with another human being. Intimacy is gift of god and available in abundance to each one of us including me. Why on earth do I will I am all alone and have to live all the years in solitude when there are genuine people around me willing to hold my hand and share my this their treasure of love and care with me. Being intimate with a partner is a gift anyone can have and at anytime. It’s just the way I look at other people needs to change. I need to see that the guy holding my hand is another human in this world wanting to be loved and to very willing to give love.
So why is that I am scared of making decisions based on certain facts that are part of my value system. Yes I was told that a guy will be chosen by my parents and I will be married to him and he will be my love for my life. That has not happened I guess because I never let anyone give me love. I thought I was too low a human being to be loved. I have felt how a guy can love me. But it seems I am wrong. An existence of a guy who can be life partner can be as natural as the morning sunshine, the dew drops on the bright green spring leaves or the singing of the morning birds or the gurgling noise of the flowing water. Love and care is intrinsic quality of human beings and is neither learnt nor forgotten while living life. It is part of life. Loving and being loved is part of life itself. It’s the nature of human being. We humans do not exist without that quality. And I have all the qualities within me that I can love a man and be loved by him un-conditionally. This is the truth and I have to accept that I am capable of being loved and loving another human being. Love and intimacy are part of me. They are not superficial things that I need to acquire or learn from someone. I know love on my own and I am a loving creature. I am lovable and a perfect lover. This is dawning to me like a sunrise. And no one can stop a rising sun. So I am out there in the world from this moment knowing that I am a loving person, capable of loving a guy with my heart and soul and being loved likewise.
I am so clear about what I want from my life. As any other person I want to be happy in my life. I want to be a loving person and being loved and surrounded by happy family members. So the core of my desires is me and my loved ones. I have kind parents and a loving brother and sister and yet I feel incomplete. I feel lonely and not so happy because primarily the loving and the loved part are missing. He is the important link. Why I have not met him? Or the right question is why don’t I see a loving person in the guy I meet? I need to encourage my mind to be receptive to positive emotions like love, hope, faith, sympathy, optimism and loyalty. Once these emotions take complete command of my mind, automatically I will be able to respond positively to every situation. I will be able to see the genuine, kind and loving person in the guy I meet.
So may be I need to make effort to meet my life partner and not passively wait for a guy to show up. The person whom I can share my life with will emerge from my life, my life events, my surroundings and my attitude. He is there somewhere waiting to hear from me. And I am busy brooding alone. I need to take the initiative in finding him out. I have to go all out meet many people and try to find him. Perhaps he too has been waiting for long like me and is as eager as I am at this moment. Hey, Prakash so when do we meet. I am so ready to meet you now, this time, this moment!!!
Can some one see the tears of joy rolling down my cheeks at this moment? These droplets are priceless. So hey world, I am here and I am so ready to meet my love partner. Dear I am waiting for you as ever. Remembering you fondly. Let’s meet soon.
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